Unapologetically Apostolic

In the world we live in, churches and other religious organizations love to have events they can utilize to draw in the crowds.  Huge productions or special services for Christmas and Easter, special nights of worship with certain well known singers coming in to draw a crowd and the like. The most recent was in honor of Pentecost Sunday, the day that the Holy Ghost was first made manifest among those gathered in the upper room. It is a day that occurs roughly 40-50 days after Easter. This is where Jesus had spoken to the disciples and those who were gathered together to watch His ascension where He spoke the words of Acts 1:8, "But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you: and ye shall be witnesses unto me both in Jerusalem, and in all Judaea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth.And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth." That day, He made the declaration to tarry together for t...

"Are you standing at a crossroad wondering which road you should take? And you′re dreading the decision and a possible mistake But the will of God won't lead you where the grace of God can′t keep you You will never be out of His care. Remember that the lord's already there Wherever you are, wherever you're going God is right there beside you seeing and knowing Wherever you go, He already knows what lies ahead and what′s behind You′ll always find He's never too far from wherever you are You are waiting to hear thunder and see lightening in the sky Oh, but God can work His wonders through a still small voice inside Just keep listening and learning and continue on your journey Following the one who is the way Oh, He′s the only road you need to take" I have known the words to this song since I was a teenager, so that is a long time.  I did forget them though.  For weeks I had sat and cried out to God, begging for a way, for an answer that I felt would never come. ...

Have you ever reached a place where you are just tired? You're physically, emotionally and spiritually just tired and you can't put into words as to the reason why? Well, that's where I am right now. All day I work at my job, which is not physically assertive in any means, but I work hard at it to be the best that I can. Then I log off for the day to come home to begin job #2 of caring for my husband.  Yes, he could do it for himself but refuses to do a lot. Fear has gripped him so tightly that he is afraid to do anything unless I am right by his side. This usually means that I do for him instead of he for himself. This usually results in him spending the day sleeping while I'm working then he wants to stay awake all night chatting the night away. Limited sleep and caffeine are my rallying cry daily.   My desire when getting into the new home was to have a dedicated area where I could study and pray. The area is set up but sadly has not been used. Each time I head towar...

2 Samuel 6:14-22 And David danced before the Lord with all his might; and David was girded with a linen ephod.15 So David and all the house of Israel brought up the ark of the Lord with shouting, and with the sound of the trumpet.16 And as the ark of the Lord came into the city of David, Michal Saul's daughter looked through a window, and saw king David leaping and dancing before the Lord; and she despised him in her heart. 17 And they brought in the ark of the Lord, and set it in his place, in the midst of the tabernacle that David had pitched for it: and David offered burnt offerings and peace offerings before the Lord.18 And as soon as David had made an end of offering burnt offerings and peace offerings, he blessed the people in the name of the Lord of hosts.19 And he dealt among all the people, even among the whole multitude of Israel, as well to the women as men, to every one a cake of bread, and a good piece of flesh, and a flagon of wine. So all the people departed every on...

I want to say that I love the Lord. I'm grateful for the precious gift of the Holy Ghost. All of my life, I have had a longing within me for something that was greater than myself. I would throw myself into things desiring to be the very best that I could so that I didn't feel like a failure. Anything less than perfection was not an option, especially for my dad. When I started faithfully attending church as a teenager, I wasn't surprised when it began to be used as a form of punishment when I failed at something. Church meant something to me, therefore if I failed I would not be allowed to go until that failure was rectified. Then, attendance became a means of manipulation and control. Yet I still desired to go.  There was something within me crying out for more. Week in and week out as I sat on that pew listening as the preacher shared the Word, inevitably to find myself for the 30th, 50th or 100th time quietly making my way to an alter because I felt drawn to something d...

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again expecting a different outcome. But is it insanity if you do the same thing because you know no other way? For as far back as I can remember, people that were in a position of spiritual authority for me would constantly ask me the same question, "How many times are you going to go around this same mountain?"  It was a question that I could not answer. I was in a spiritual wilderness, wandering and waiting, hoping that one day I would make it to the promised land. The issue with what was occuring for me was a bit two-fold. One: I was raised in a church that told me that if I was saved I was ok. And two: how was what I was doing different from what others around me in the church was doing? Why did I feel guilty for it and "unsaved" and they are in a position of leadership? Even as a teenager, I constantly stayed in an alter begging God to cleanse me and "rededicating" my life to Him. Then reac...